I am depressed.I am sad. Crying. Bored. Alone. Empty.I am guilty. Scared. Angry.I am tired. Restless. Jittery.I am nervous. Disorganized. Self-consious.I can't think. See. Move.I am in a fog.I feel ugly.I hurt.I am dying inside.I am depressed.
Broken HeartOnce your heart has been broken, you can no longer feel.Love and hate can no longer be felt.You sit, all alone, in your icy shell of numbness.Empty eyes staring at nothing- Hollow eyes that were once full of life, But are now just bottomless windows of endless pain.A fractured heart, fragile as glass, needs the light and warmth of love to be healed.The light of those who truly love you can lead you home and heal what's left of your shattered, bleeding heart.But once the hourglass is done pouring, it is too late.The heart will stop beating, and the last light will fade.
If you only knew meThe world looks at me with closed eyesnot willing to see how I seeI supress my feelings in a tiny heart shaped bottleSo small its not known of unless I tell youEveryone brands me as happy, no worries, hakuna matatalittle do they knowIm the girl who thinks of suicide dailywho is there for everyone even if they aren't for herwho when in the shower, prays to come out transformedto be someone, someone who's beautifulsomeone somebody lovesA girl who despises herself and everything about hershe sees herself as to, caring, benevolent, stubborn,persistent, over-analyzing, annoying, immature, bitchy, andso much more.you see? in her life she never has a second chanceshes judged for every wrong doing she doesshe used to be a "bully" but no one wonders whythey just assumedThey didnt know how she was sick for yearsand the only way to show affection was threw pain.They didnt see her pain caused from guilt of making hermother cryall her regrets of being sick and forcing
Identity Crisis who are you who am iare we lovers leaving behind scarlet letters& last minute kisses or are we foesnothing but green eyes & angry fists who are you who am imaybe peeling back these layers of skinwill unravel the answer, but what happenswhen there's nothing left; bloody hands & empty eyes Who are you who am i are the shadows that we seeinside this reflective glass our identityor is that too, a liethe galaxy won't tell its mouth has long gone dry,leaving my page blank except for: who are you & who am i
Giving InWhen I cryWhen it callsInto its embraceI will fallI am hurtAnd so are youBut out of its shadowI cannot moveI am helplessI cannot be freedFrom the gripIt has on meWill this ever change?Can I be strong?Get rid of this habitThat I know is wrong?I will tryI always doBut I will give inJust a little too soonThe day will be badI'll feel so hurtAnd wonder howTo make my life workAnd I will cryAnd it will callThen into its embraceI will once again fall
LonelyThere was a time when I loved to be aloneAnd I was never lonelyI would escape into a book or a movie or just my own thoughtsThen one day I let you insideI found that life was far sweeter when it was sharedBut now you're gone and I am alone once moreAnd I am always lonely
Relive, Letting GoTake my mistakes,And work them out right,For every crooked path,Make it run straight.Where depression once lived,Let joy leap forth,A broken heart can be mended,At the touch of life.Why seek the low valleys,When you can roam mountainsides?Do you go to the lonely well,Instead of the laughing brook?Over, under,In and out,Happy, unhappy,Dead or alive.It's all about perspectives,Our take on the world,The choices we make,Are only ours to decide.
life lessons.laugh a little,love a lot.you'll get your heart brokenso maybe not,but who am ito call the shots?sadness will consume youif you allow it to.happiness is a few steps away,but it's up to you to find its path& don't forget,nothing will last.take what you get& work for what you want.know that something will setbut waiting will get you nowhere.be kind to those you loveso they'll know that you're there.play the hand you're dealt& gamble what you want.learn to dealbecause all of it is real.learn your lessonsbefore you play them out.know them thoroughlybefore you get out.
Comfort Me.I look in the mirror and wonder what you seeIn this pathetic, fucked up mess that is meBecause what you say is beauty, vibrance, and lifeI say is ugly, weak, and not rightI show you my soul, or what there is leftFrom all the years of self-hate and neglectI notice you staring and I want to runFrom the judgmental look I know you have onBut your hand grasps mine lightly, keeping me hereI'm afraid how soothing it is to me that your near.Because I know you're going to leave me aloneI'm useless to you, trust me I know"You are too good for me, this monster, this messI have too many flaws to possibly addressI'm selfish and needy and hateful and lostBeing with me is just too great a costI'll drag you down and hold you back
"But a finger on my lips stops my attackHe smiles at me and pulls me closeWhispering in my ear I mean the most,"You are adorable, smart and crazyEverything about you I find so amazingWhy do you do this? Why do you hate,Yourself and the things that