I can'tSelf confidence, what is that?Never known it, not something I had.Still something I do not knowEven when I hear kind words from youYou are great, you can do thatI hear, I know you are rightbut I don't believe youcan't believe it's trueI can't believe kind wordsspoken against meI want to believebut, I can'tMind of me, pleaselet me believekind words spokenagainst wonderful mePlease, pleaselet me believebut.. I can't
Ohana Means FamilySam Winchester opened the door to the hotel room he and his brother had paid for earlier that week. He smiled fondly at the scene before him. A young boy of about 4 years in age sat cross-legged in the middle of the shaggy green carpet in front of the two Queen-sized beds. His golden-blonde, thin hair shook with each small movement of his head. Some of it hung over his large, emerald eyes that sparkled with childish innocence with a hint of mischief. He looked up startled as Sam entered, smiling generously, his hazel eyes full of fondness and compassion for the young boy before him.The boy happened to be his older brother, Dean, who was currently under a spell that physically and mentally altered him.SPNSPNSPNIt had happened on Monday when they had taken a hunt in northern Michigan that had them believing that they were going to gank a witch. But it happened to turn out to be an occult of immature adolescents who had somehow gotten their inexperienced hands upon a dangerous a
HateI hate youbecause I love youI hate youbecause you were my friendI hate youbecause I trusted youI hate youbecause you leftI hate myselfFor letting you go
MasksWith big smiles she greeted her friends,Drowning in the crowd of people.How many claimed to be her loved ones?Hundreds? Thousands? She lost count long ago.They welcomed her with jokes and laughter,and she replied with hugs and kisses,Pretending not to see the cracks in their masksOr the lies in their voices.She knew they were hiding something,She heard the whispers behind her back,Saw the greed behind their smiles,And sensed their hatred long ago.And every day she felt another partOf her soul breaking away.At night she tried to fix it,Trying to reattach the broken pieces,But as the time went by she realizedThat the harder she tried, the faster she broke.And so she continued what she had once started,Acting cheerful, while breaking apart,slowly creating her own maskTo hide her true self.Until one day she met you,The girl who refused to wear a disguise,A big grin in your face,And true kindness in your words.Your left hand you had outstretched,In your right you
Stormingi. Summer rain fingers quietly trickle down cheek bones and window panes.ii. Eyes darken into shadows until morning light; the tempest remains.
There's Black All AroundThere's black all around, with nothing to touch or see,I'm hanging by dead images that started to discolor, swallowed by the obscure sea.In this dark universe the wind is breathless,To never wake up again, to bleed to death it would be a bless.The sweet, cold rain, it never pours,Because here's no sky, no earth, no exit doors.There's black all around, with noting to smell or hear,In my dreams is still a bit of color, but soon it will disappear.In this dark universe my heart stopped beating,Here's no oxygen, because there's no need of breathing,For the last shard of sun I'm still grieving
I'm screaming to the endless dark,But the echo of my voice won't overcome,Because here's no "get back from".There's black all around, with no joy or pain,Because here's neither lose or gain,I still remember how love and hate felt like,But this will be erased too by the obscure bane,Replaced by a field of nothing, an obscure plain
It's kind of funny to remember that I
I Can TryI can listen to everything you have to sayAnd try my best to make you feel betterMake the difficult times easier for youI can hold you close and make everything else disappearLet you take out your anger and frustrationPromise not to go anywhereI can tell you I won't leave you when things start to fall apartBut that doesn't mean you would do the sameWhen things start to get hardI can love you with all of my heartMiss you so much it hurts to breatheBut that won't make you come backMake you want to be with meI can try to convince myself that there's someone else out there for meThat you don't still own my heartI don't know if I'll ever truly be over youBut I can try to be
i was someone.I was someone before I met you, too.I had what I neededMy child mind dreamed of dragons and glitter rain.I sang myself to sleep each night,A cradlesong like stars flickeringKnowing that someday I'd be everything I wanted to be.Your eyes will no longer be the prisonThat holds me.I will believe in the myths againIf it's what will save me.I choose the life I live.And I choose a life that is danced, not staggered through;A life that embraces mystery.I choose to accept what you have done to me,But not let it consume me.I was someone before I met you, too.
BloodthirstyI can feel it growing strongerI can feel it trying to take overI don't know how much longerI have before I fall foreverI never had a reason to tell youThat I am feeling weakerWith every passing moment nowI'm wonder how much longer I haveBecause I know my days are numberedI'm feeling more bloodthirstyThis is why I'm weakerAnd why it's getting much strongerI feel it trying to take me overI don't know how much longer I have to liveBut I know I will not fall aloneI never want to be near youWe never know when it'll take overSo tell me, why are you still hereEven when you knowI'm struggling to control this monsterThat is my bloodlustI hate everything about itI don't how to fight itWithout letting it out for a moment or twoBut I swear that I'll never get a chanceTo ever feel free ever againIf it becomes unleashedAnd kills you allI'm feeling more bloodthirstyThis is why I'm weakerAnd why it's getting much strongerI feel it trying to take me overI don't know how
Poem: Hold OnHold OnI heard you crying last nightDid you stop trying last night?You scream there is nothing leftYou say there is nothing insideYou used to fly up so highBut you fell to pieces in the skyYou let go of your faithAnd threw away your dreamsTry and find something left for usI'll turn the lights outSleep for tonightI have to leave,So goodbyeYou have to face this aloneYou need to build your strengthYou lost faith in meAnd gave upYou know there is nothingLeft of usYou say it's too lateAnd nothing hurtsThe feelings will comeAnd some will burnBut some will healIf you keep strongYou won't hurt anymoreYou can lay in the grassAnd feel the sunIf you'll just wait for oneKeep shining darlingIt's never too lateTo turn your life aroundEven if only for a dayYou can reinvent yourselfAnd become someone newLive a different lifeAnd dry off your eyesJust keep smiling,I promise you it's not all goneThere is light at the endAll you have to do is hold on
Lonely SoulHere on the frozen earth I standWondering what happened to my great landThe thunder of dragons in the sky I hearCannot be cured by the angels tearAs the blood of the innocents falls from my handThe death toll around me is quite grandSeeking companionship in a lonely stateI'll never be cured at this rateGhosts of friends surround my mistakeAs i listen to their hearts acheMothers, Fathers and children cryWhispering the hope that I may soon dieThese fields of tears need no more sorrowAs i cannot promise them of another tomorrowMy path begins again as i leave this placeHopefully to start again with out disgraceMother, Father? Can you see my sins?Aren't you happy of you're fellow kin?Your bastard son has killed once moreLeaving nothing behind but despair and goreI am monstrosity to the full extentI have nothing to gain, nor nothing to resentAs i leave the village of lost hope and willI begin to wonder what's next to killMore innocent creatures that show no
Hold OnSeems like nobody cares anymoreDays go by and I am stuck in the same place as yesterdayLocked in this cageIn a endless loop of disappointment and lostAll I can do is to hold to the dreamJust hold on and believeI know the road is hard but a day will comeToday may be long but tomorrow will comeI just need to hold and believeWeeks have gone byI still hold onTo that dreamBut that dream went up into flamesI thought it will never turned this wayBut all I can do is to hold onWhat is left of me?What I can pull out of this rubble?Burned up in flamesA lifetime of effort, gone in a flashI feel no pain or numbnessJust feels nothingBut I will always rememberRemember to hold onHold on and believe that someone will come and save