HateI hate youbecause I love youI hate youbecause you were my friendI hate youbecause I trusted youI hate youbecause you leftI hate myselfFor letting you go
UmbrellaWill you be my umbrella?That shelters me from the shards of glass that fall from the sky,The hate, the depression and the lies,Even within the mist, all I could see is you.Even within the clouds, all I need is you,During my darkest days,You lifted me to the skies,You took me away,To places that I thought never existed.Even though you weren't perfect,Even though you let in rain every now and again,I still held you tight,I did my best to show you the light.You sheltered my soul from the loneliness of this world,You became my wings, my reason for living.My umbrella.
Because of YouI know I'm crazy,but its because of you.I think you're causing,these feelings,that bloom,when I see you.I don't know what to say,but I'll give you some space.I don't know what to do,but I think, I like you.You make me smile,you make me laugh,you make me blush,but you don't see,or is it just me??
On The EdgeI'm standing on the edgeI can feel the air hit my bodyIt could all be an illusionAnd I can be an adventurerI can be the explorer of the afterlifeI could be the first to venture thereI could be the first to break from this illusionBut what if there is nothing past this edgeAs children we exploreAnd we find and learnAs adults we have learnedAnd we crave to exploreAs I curl my toes on the edgeI think of who will care if I doCause I'm standing on the rooftopReady to fall, ready for a new start
MasksWith big smiles she greeted her friends,Drowning in the crowd of people.How many claimed to be her loved ones?Hundreds? Thousands? She lost count long ago.They welcomed her with jokes and laughter,and she replied with hugs and kisses,Pretending not to see the cracks in their masksOr the lies in their voices.She knew they were hiding something,She heard the whispers behind her back,Saw the greed behind their smiles,And sensed their hatred long ago.And every day she felt another partOf her soul breaking away.At night she tried to fix it,Trying to reattach the broken pieces,But as the time went by she realizedThat the harder she tried, the faster she broke.And so she continued what she had once started,Acting cheerful, while breaking apart,slowly creating her own maskTo hide her true self.Until one day she met you,The girl who refused to wear a disguise,A big grin in your face,And true kindness in your words.Your left hand you had outstretched,In your right you
There's Black All AroundThere's black all around, with nothing to touch or see,I'm hanging by dead images that started to discolor, swallowed by the obscure sea.In this dark universe the wind is breathless,To never wake up again, to bleed to death it would be a bless.The sweet, cold rain, it never pours,Because here's no sky, no earth, no exit doors.There's black all around, with noting to smell or hear,In my dreams is still a bit of color, but soon it will disappear.In this dark universe my heart stopped beating,Here's no oxygen, because there's no need of breathing,For the last shard of sun I'm still grieving
I'm screaming to the endless dark,But the echo of my voice won't overcome,Because here's no "get back from".There's black all around, with no joy or pain,Because here's neither lose or gain,I still remember how love and hate felt like,But this will be erased too by the obscure bane,Replaced by a field of nothing, an obscure plain
It's kind of funny to remember that I
Stormingi. Summer rain fingers quietly trickle down cheek bones and window panes.ii. Eyes darken into shadows until morning light; the tempest remains.
I can'tSelf confidence, what is that?Never known it, not something I had.Still something I do not knowEven when I hear kind words from youYou are great, you can do thatI hear, I know you are rightbut I don't believe youcan't believe it's trueI can't believe kind wordsspoken against meI want to believebut, I can'tMind of me, pleaselet me believekind words spokenagainst wonderful mePlease, pleaselet me believebut.. I can't
BloodthirstyI can feel it growing strongerI can feel it trying to take overI don't know how much longerI have before I fall foreverI never had a reason to tell youThat I am feeling weakerWith every passing moment nowI'm wonder how much longer I haveBecause I know my days are numberedI'm feeling more bloodthirstyThis is why I'm weakerAnd why it's getting much strongerI feel it trying to take me overI don't know how much longer I have to liveBut I know I will not fall aloneI never want to be near youWe never know when it'll take overSo tell me, why are you still hereEven when you knowI'm struggling to control this monsterThat is my bloodlustI hate everything about itI don't how to fight itWithout letting it out for a moment or twoBut I swear that I'll never get a chanceTo ever feel free ever againIf it becomes unleashedAnd kills you allI'm feeling more bloodthirstyThis is why I'm weakerAnd why it's getting much strongerI feel it trying to take me overI don't know how
i was someone.I was someone before I met you, too.I had what I neededMy child mind dreamed of dragons and glitter rain.I sang myself to sleep each night,A cradlesong like stars flickeringKnowing that someday I'd be everything I wanted to be.Your eyes will no longer be the prisonThat holds me.I will believe in the myths againIf it's what will save me.I choose the life I live.And I choose a life that is danced, not staggered through;A life that embraces mystery.I choose to accept what you have done to me,But not let it consume me.I was someone before I met you, too.
Hold OnSeems like nobody cares anymoreDays go by and I am stuck in the same place as yesterdayLocked in this cageIn a endless loop of disappointment and lostAll I can do is to hold to the dreamJust hold on and believeI know the road is hard but a day will comeToday may be long but tomorrow will comeI just need to hold and believeWeeks have gone byI still hold onTo that dreamBut that dream went up into flamesI thought it will never turned this wayBut all I can do is to hold onWhat is left of me?What I can pull out of this rubble?Burned up in flamesA lifetime of effort, gone in a flashI feel no pain or numbnessJust feels nothingBut I will always rememberRemember to hold onHold on and believe that someone will come and save
Broken HeartOnce your heart has been broken, you can no longer feel.Love and hate can no longer be felt.You sit, all alone, in your icy shell of numbness.Empty eyes staring at nothing- Hollow eyes that were once full of life, But are now just bottomless windows of endless pain.A fractured heart, fragile as glass, needs the light and warmth of love to be healed.The light of those who truly love you can lead you home and heal what's left of your shattered, bleeding heart.But once the hourglass is done pouring, it is too late.The heart will stop beating, and the last light will fade.