I love this! I believe many artist struggle with these feelings everyday, it is why we can describe so well, we feel so intensely. You describe this feeling perfectly. I connect with it on many levels of my own suffering. Kudos. I love it! I will fav it forever!
I'm so glad you can connect with my words cuz I think it's the essence of poetry...the essence of literature itself! Even though my words are sad and depressive, it's nice to know that in the battle with the world I'm not the only one struggling...that gives me strength!