I love this! I believe many artist struggle with these feelings everyday, it is why we can describe so well, we feel so intensely. You describe this feeling perfectly. I connect with it on many levels of my own suffering. Kudos. I love it! I will fav it forever!
I'm so glad you can connect with my words cuz I think it's the essence of poetry...the essence of literature itself! Even though my words are sad and depressive, it's nice to know that in the battle with the world I'm not the only one struggling...that gives me strength!
Your thouhts speak of those I have carried since I was small. I used to writepoems to help me though and now I draw, no wait, I dooddle. I try to han on to something that I do not expect love in return but whom I can love all I want. Some people find a pet, others a friend or a child. Some find a charity or organization to pour out what we all have inside, the capacity to love unconditionally. I am lucky. I hang on to what I have but I aways have these thoughts. Anaquaintance tells me I am easily discouraged. It really is not that. I have had so much throuwn at me from an ealy age that my cup is full of negatie things. Consequently, a small set bak throws me right back into an abyss. Your poems are beautiful and very intense. I am glad you have kindness inyour heart to credit the artist though the drawing in the web are mostly nameless. I too fin many pictures that I can relate to for my wallpaper to deal with how I feel that day. Keep writting, do not stop, you have the ability to give a voice to your thoughts. I lost that a long time ago. Will be checking for more of yur work. Best wishes.