Death's InvitationLife is tedious, a cyclical hellThis monochrome world holds me captive in its spellI desperately search for my purpose in lifeDeath tells me "There is none. Now pick up the knife."I try to ignore him, but he is persistent and slyHe gives me more reasons to believe I should die"You're useless," Death's voice resonates in my head"Trust me, you'd be better off dead.No one will cry, you won't be missed,You're tired of life, just give it a rest."Nothing new happens, you constantly try to hideThat everything frustrates you, you're fit to be tied.I promise you, child, with death you'll be free.Why keep fighting for nothing? It makes no sense to me.You're bored, restless, you'll do anything to change this.Why not try suicide? It'll lead you to bliss."His words burn like fire, but he's right, it's trueThe monotony is killing me, I don't know what to doI wake up, go to school, go home, and go to bedCould he possibly be right? Am I better off dead?Yes, I feel jaded, to the poi
You never noticed meYou noticed my smileYou noticed my luckYou noticed my loveYou never noticed my tearsYou never noticed my painYou never noticed me
What is Love?LoveIt isn't the size of her breastsNor is it the way you dressLove isn't your wealthOr popularityLove isn't the jerkLove isn't sexLove is patientLove is kindLove is when you'll be there for himLove is when you'll stay by his sideLove is when you'll spend eternity with himLove is when you'll die for himLove is to love
Because of YouI know I'm crazy,but its because of you.I think you're causing,these feelings,that bloom,when I see you.I don't know what to say,but I'll give you some space.I don't know what to do,but I think, I like you.You make me smile,you make me laugh,you make me blush,but you don't see,or is it just me??
A ComparisonI do not dare to speak of familyWhen yours was torn apart so suddenlyI do not dare to speak of funeralsWhen you had to bury several friendsI do not speak of depressions and mental issuesWhen your demons had almost got you killedI do not speak of the darkness I am fightingCompared to your hell it's merely a shadeYou all have faced greater horrorsThan I can ever imagineI never felt such intense painI never was already dyingWhat right do I have to be weakWhen you survived so much worse?
Look (Right Through Me)Allegory rules the world,Angry, lonely, little girl.Begging for life by praying for death,Understanding love but hating breath.Black lies in spider silk,Smothering all the voices.Screaming truth by spreading the lies,Hearing them all but ignoring the cries.Heartbreak and heartbeats,Drowning out broken hearts.Beating hate by feigning glorified love,Confined by life but free as a dead dove.Crimson hopes flooding out,Killing the pessimist's child.Singing silence by bleeding it away,Losing religion but aching to pray.Killer fame striking hot,Taming the soul I loved.Playing the game by sitting it out,Knowing it all but nothing about.Sharp amethysts stab deep,Reminding me of my you.Showing me care by letting me die,Listening long but not hearing me cry.Headphone hospice healing hearts,Death started by life's poison darts.Hell's hearse harking hollow hate,Taking me away from this berate.He held hearts, he hurt her head,He's him and I'm her; both better off dead.
Losing MeI find peace in loathingI suffer pleasure from painI feel comfort in dark clothingWhether judgment or acceptance is my baneI have cried all my tearsStill in darkness I am boundWandering desperately through the yearsThe true identities never to be foundLost is allA blanked out, thrown out memoryFrom the abuses that do appallHope and love was my everyBut now my life will soon dissolveInto a screaming dark place with no resolve...
No one's listening. . .With every breath I takeI feel as if there's someone hammering at my headAnd clawing at my heartWith every move I makeSomething is tearing me apartMaking me grow weakWith every word I speakSomeone else gets hurtAnd I'm ignored once moreSo tell me...What's the point of me screamingIf there's no one to listen?
Carry OnThey say, "Freedom always wins."But, they just stole my innocence.So turn around, watch your back,Look out for the skills you lack,Because one of these daysYou'll get past the haze,Then you'll finally see,That we aren't meant to be.I want you to know,That this pain isn't just for show,And you're an amazing guy, But I'm just too shy.Plus I'm not right mentally,So Please, just forget about me.The time I spend with you is great,But I'm starting to fall out of love and into hate.Red blood pours out of my pale skin,It lets me know I'll never win,Because this blood is what I could never say,This blood is just the liquid emotion that I feel everyday.Bring back my colors because they're starting to fade,And erase these memories because they're so overplayedSo if I kill my self tonight,My last wish is to end this fight.Forget the labels, I've left them behindJust erase this day, and hit rewind.Go back to when this was all a dream,When you where my king and I was
Untitled Everything hurtsWaking up in the morning hurtsTrying not to cry hurtsPlastering a smile that I hateWith a passion hurtsTalking to you hurtsI try to hide it and act like everything's fineBut you always manage to see right through meI don't even know how...My wall's been up for so longIt's strong and thick. Keeps people out Why not you? You're the cause of my painMy tearsWhy can't I keep you out? Get out.
I am depressed.I am sad. Crying. Bored. Alone. Empty.I am guilty. Scared. Angry.I am tired. Restless. Jittery.I am nervous. Disorganized. Self-consious.I can't think. See. Move.I am in a fog.I feel ugly.I hurt.I am dying inside.I am depressed.